The Battle has Begun

Yesterday I confronted an enemy within myself.  This enemy has yet to be named, but its presence has been evident for many years.  Mostly he has lain dormant & then when I least expected it, he reared his ugly head and attacked.  His assaults have caused great pain and nuisance.  And I have come to fear him…I approach plans and actions based on whether I think this foe is going to appear.  I’ve canceled gatherings with friends, cut short engagements, and even denied myself certain things for fear that my enemy will attack and make things difficult or uncomfortable for myself and those around me. 

Even though I’ve seen this monster in my life and felt his wounds, I have done nothing.  I have endured and hoped that he would just give up and disappear;  That my small change of certain habits would force him to leave…but they have only prolonged the inevitable – an aggressive onslaught that causes major damage.   I have been unwise in my passivity. 

So yesterday I made my first advance against this enemy.  I am gathering an army against him and creating a strategy to oust him from my life.  I am ready to name him, find out from whence he came, and learn of his strategy.   I know that victory will not come without battles and wounds.  I am preparing myself for some tumultuous days; but I am clothing myself with Armor and mentally preparing for what is to come.  And, of course, I already have the victory because I have the Greatest General of All!


3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. jeremy
    Jun 03, 2009 @ 14:20:57

    that sounds intense…



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